池波 流ノ介 [IKENAMI RYUUNOSUKE] (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
wetfortono) wrote2012-07-26 01:47 am
wetfortono) wrote2012-07-26 01:47 am
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It's Ryuunosuke.
I have neglected this diary awfully, even though it was a gift from somebody important. Perhaps, even, I jinxed myself by not using it. However, even though matters can no longer be changed, the diary can be of use to me.
There is another gift from that same person that I don't know what to do with at all. I can neither wear it nor throw it out, I don't want to put it where I can see it, but even if I hide it I will remember. It's like a sore from training that you can't seem to ignore.
I've considered giving the necklace to Chiaki in hopes that he will come to deserve it in ways that I didn't, but he certainly has no use for such hand-me-downs, nor would it do him any particular good.
I wish to support him from the bottom of my heart, but what could my advice possibly be worth? If I knew what I was talking about, I surely would not be in this situation to begin with.
It all comes down to my insufficiency, in the end.
Mako... I wish I understood. If you had been left with a stronger boyfriend, you wouldn't have to handle such a terrible mess. None of it is yours to fix, but it seems you can't help yourself either, huh?
There are so many thoughts occupying my head I can only address very few at a time, although I would rather get it all off my chest at once. I'm tired of hearing myself think. Even writing it off my chest isn't very different.
[it's at this point that he gets annoyed with.himself again and closes the diary before he can finish the entry, pushing it to the very back of a drawer]
[former journal entries]
I have neglected this diary awfully, even though it was a gift from somebody important. Perhaps, even, I jinxed myself by not using it. However, even though matters can no longer be changed, the diary can be of use to me.
There is another gift from that same person that I don't know what to do with at all. I can neither wear it nor throw it out, I don't want to put it where I can see it, but even if I hide it I will remember. It's like a sore from training that you can't seem to ignore.
I've considered giving the necklace to Chiaki in hopes that he will come to deserve it in ways that I didn't, but he certainly has no use for such hand-me-downs, nor would it do him any particular good.
I wish to support him from the bottom of my heart, but what could my advice possibly be worth? If I knew what I was talking about, I surely would not be in this situation to begin with.
It all comes down to my insufficiency, in the end.
Mako... I wish I understood. If you had been left with a stronger boyfriend, you wouldn't have to handle such a terrible mess. None of it is yours to fix, but it seems you can't help yourself either, huh?
There are so many thoughts occupying my head I can only address very few at a time, although I would rather get it all off my chest at once. I'm tired of hearing myself think. Even writing it off my chest isn't very different.
[it's at this point that he gets annoyed with.himself again and closes the diary before he can finish the entry, pushing it to the very back of a drawer]
[former journal entries]